— Danielle LaPorte (via light-essence)
Band of Horses Everything All The Time album will always just break my heart when I hear it. Anyone else? I could literally sob every time I hear The Funeral.
It reminds me of running in my grandma’s old neighborhood, in the middle of the day in the summer, because I hated myself so much that I needed punishment, I needed to feel weak, I needed to burn and ache. And I needed an escape from hating myself for not sticking up for what I really felt. For not sticking up for someone I loved so much. It reminds me of you telling me you let someone else have you, while you were lying next to me in my driveway in the middle of the night. My arms, legs, face, and feet were cold from the night and the wind, but the pavement was still hot from the daytime. I made you lay closer because I knew I had power over you, but I hated that I did because that’s how we got to where we were.
This was all nearly 8 years ago, but man, that summer and that album cut me deep.
deeproutes asked: I don't know about the actual mothering part, but I feel you on having ruined body feels. At least you have little angels to show for it! You're beautiful though girl, everything will get a little better day by day. Hang in there!
Thanks so much for the encouragement & compliments! <3 Yeah, I just kind of avoid any and all mirrors/glass doors/puddles of water/etc. And it is nice to have them to distract me!
reason #709 why my father-in-law annoys the shit out of me and makes me wish I could move my family far, far, FAR away….
While my THREE MONTH OLD INFANT DAUGHTER was crying for several minutes, and nothing was working to get her to stop right away, he says, “high maintenance much?” and then proceeded to call her “princess” and “demanding” of attention.
ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME. SHE’S AN INFANT. SHE CRIES. THEY ALL FUCKING CRY, YOU IDIOT.
Do not stigmatize my daughter. Do not assume that she cries more often than her twin brother merely because she is a female.
You guys, he is just such a fucking dumbass. He isn’t even blood related to her, so thank the universe for that. I wish I could just tell him to fuck off.
I could go on for hours about how much I hate him, but I have more productive things to do.
Like watch my beautiful children sleep.